no surprise here
i'm lovin it.
Busy with my life in Tantra Inc as an Assistant Producer and
balancing both family and social life.
Thing is miss most is my sleep and dreams.
Due to work, eating is like a goal for the day, thus i'm literally losing weight.
I still love eating though.
I'm 21 and soon to celebrate my 21st mega birthday party!! Right now, it's only talk.
Saturday, March 31, 2007
Stress Had Taken Over Me..
I always knew i cldnt take stress although i thought that stress is nothing if you cld handle it right. Well, i am handling it right but i'm still too stressed up n freakinly worried..
Yup.. i'm still up at this hour.. studyin of cuz. Later gonna meet may at city hall.. not for shoppin but to head to d library to study... NERDS??? nah.. haha...
I'm tired.. not sleepy... I cld actualli stay up all night to finish my revision but cant.. later going out mah..
Olite.. got to go.. TATA...
Yup.. i'm still up at this hour.. studyin of cuz. Later gonna meet may at city hall.. not for shoppin but to head to d library to study... NERDS??? nah.. haha...
I'm tired.. not sleepy... I cld actualli stay up all night to finish my revision but cant.. later going out mah..
Olite.. got to go.. TATA...
4:22 AM
Friday, March 30, 2007
Do i Or Do i Not
This ain't a marriage proposals or anything like that. Haha
Just that, I know that i'm prepared to tackle the ques im both my marketing and econs paper. But i also know that i'm not prepared to tackle the ques im both my marketing and econs paper. Dont know whether i'm ready or not. Ive studied whatever i need to study but the ques r always diff from what ive studied. I have no idea what ive miss.
And after talkin to qal, ive realised that ive havent been takin a break from my studies since mon. But what i can do about it, ive gotta pass this darn exam. I need to move on. I dont wanna be lagged behind.
Also, whenever i have my own stress and probs, there's always sumthin that will make me smile... My cuzzin smses to me. I msg him that i'm currently bz studyin n waiting for my exam. He simply replied, "No nid to wait for exam. It'll come to you". Well, it's logic.. haha..
Just that, I know that i'm prepared to tackle the ques im both my marketing and econs paper. But i also know that i'm not prepared to tackle the ques im both my marketing and econs paper. Dont know whether i'm ready or not. Ive studied whatever i need to study but the ques r always diff from what ive studied. I have no idea what ive miss.
And after talkin to qal, ive realised that ive havent been takin a break from my studies since mon. But what i can do about it, ive gotta pass this darn exam. I need to move on. I dont wanna be lagged behind.
Also, whenever i have my own stress and probs, there's always sumthin that will make me smile... My cuzzin smses to me. I msg him that i'm currently bz studyin n waiting for my exam. He simply replied, "No nid to wait for exam. It'll come to you". Well, it's logic.. haha..
Found this in my mailbox today..
Du-Milk Or Dum-lik... haha.. Well d answer is obvious but for d fun of it...
"TO ALL MUMS!!! NOW U SHLD KNOW WHICH MILK NOT TO BUY!!!"
Funny how sometimes these advertisers uses wierd name to promote a normal good. They didnt see how it would sound like through a consumer's point..
Oh shit.. i'm talkin bout marketing strategies now.. haiz.. Marketing n Econs has corrupted my mind..HELP!!!!
11:14 PM
Wednesday, March 28, 2007
Knew This Would Happen...
A few days ago.. (last week) i knew that stress will get the better of me. And ya.. it sure did.. Only tues and i cld feel it.. and it's gonna get worse.. Somehow i also knew that i wont be able to take it. But for now, it's juz d beginning.
Especially today, for no reason whatsoever, i'm starting to recall loads of embarressing moments, moments which i dont want to remember and d bad days of me being a kid. Somehow, those are all nightmares to me now.
Also, nearly teared earlier when there was a communication breakdown between my grandad n i. He was askin bout my cuzzin's sch result and i wanted to tell him that we avent received anything yet.. Somehow he made things difficult for me and i had problem tellin him in tamil. It juz had to stopped and he laughed.. Dont know whether i answer wrongly or wad but yeah.. he laugh. And i sooo know that he was laughin at me and my tamil. Got frastrated and went straight to my room. Conclusion: I SOO HATE HIM!!!
Anyway was sorta studyin d whole day but my concentration was there most of my time. Got distracted very easily. Sometimes when i cld concentrade, d bad memories juz flow in through my mind. Nothing i do cld stop all these nonsences.
I only manage to finish up my marketing notes ysday. Was studyin/concentratin from 2pm -4am ysdae. Whoa!!!... My Econs still sux.. D more i tink bout my stupid ungraded assignment, more stress n furious i get.
Anyway, overall, today i was angry n upset most of my time. D only time when i wasnt was when i was concentratin on d music i was listenin to, d mutton podcasts and disturbing my mum. My econs notes are al around me now but juz cant touch it.
I dont know what to do.. realli... I juz wan to hang loose.. Do nothing.. be lazy, but i noe i cant.. well not for now at least... And as long as those bad memories of mine stop comin back, i shld be fine...
12:57 AM
Tuesday, March 27, 2007
URGGGHHH
HATE MY ECONS LECT TO THE CORE!!! IF I FAIL MY ECONS.. I'M COMING AFTER HIM!!!
Seriously lah.. I got back my Econs Assignment Paper last fri and i failed.. 6/20.. Techincally i shld get 8/20 cuz it seems that he left out markin one of my answers. Further more i'm unable to clarify with him cuz my last lesson with tt idiot was last Mon.. And by fri, he had disappeared.. He told us that he'll be on a overseas business trip.
Now, i dont know where i went wrong in my assignment!!! Who to ask.. Majority failed in class...
CURSE HIM!!!
URGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ****####@@@@!!!!
2:59 PM
Friday, March 23, 2007
Pics Galore!!!
Today is finally d last day of school.. Soo gonna miss d audi.. But we had to change klass due to some unknown reasons..D other class was freakin stuffy..But gotton used to it..
So.. durin break time.. hanged out with alicia, alexis, eric, darren, 1 unknown name gal, Bharathi was with us but i didnt tok to her, n also ruben later appeared.. These ppl ROX.. They have d weiredest ideas (which is productive) and simply hilarious..
But everything had to come to an end n yes.. finally d last lesson has ended..
So, as planned, mel, may n i went out to maken at MAc n study too.. Spent half d time chit-chattin.. Also, snapped sum pics!!!
My Stuffy Sub Class.. This Was Taken By May Durin Break...
Mel n I... Taken Last Week Durin Break...
Today At MAC..Nice Specs...?? Luv This Pic..
May Is Pretendin To Study Juz 4 d Foto Shoot.. HAHA.. UR BUSTED!!!
Sincere In Studyin.. Haha..
This Was What We Saw.. D Kid Was Practically Hangin!!!
So.. Picture aside for now.. Anyway, may went back hm first.. And after a long while n after d rain had stopped.. Mel went back leavin me alone to study.. I left arnd 6 after my mood for studyin had finally disappeared..
Came home to see my bro hm.. Darn.. Thought of occupyin d hse all for myself since d old guy not at hm.. hehe..
Anyway, tml is WORK Time... Sian.. rather stay hm n study.. Oh well.. Nex whole week will be my study week.. Cant wait to wake up late w/o my alarm!!!.. hehe..
Anyway.. Mum naggin me to makan.. Still full after d mac food n d free strawberry sundae by may.. THANKS!!!.. But before i'm off.. I shall post d pics ive been wantin to post .. Enjoy..
d Heapz Of Bills Finally Cleared Frm My Wallet.. hehe..
d Art Of Communicating With D Kitchen Staff.. Nice Butt Too.. hehe..
Things I Do When I'm Freakin Bored!!!
See No Evil
Hear No Evil
Say No Evil
Now I Wonder What's Evil. Guess I'm Aint An Evil Person.. HAHA.. (SOO NOT TRUE)
Me At Work.. That's My Offical Parkway Parade Pass
This Was Taken Ysday Back At ITE.. Looks Like Man Luvs Gettin Strangle n Qal Luvs Stranglin Him ... hehe..
7:30 PM
Thursday, March 22, 2007
Felt Unwanted n Exam Cumin DIE!!!
yup.. moi exam cumin soon in a weeks time.. So far for my class tests.. for my econs i got a nice 6/20 marks and for my marketing i got a gd 56/100 marks..
Seriously dunno what d hell happend to my econs..Best part is that i'm unable to confront my lect for my econs cuz he's disappeared!!! And it's almost impossible to contact him... Shit lah.. This is seriously not my fault at all.. His bloody last lesson was on Mon... and it was only today where we received our test paper by our marketin lect.. Aiya...
Anyway was quite happi that i passed my marketing.. Understood moi mistakes... So exam is nearin and will be bz studyin.. sian.. At least can slp!!! haha...
Anyway.. Went back to ite macpherson todae.. Was realli excited gg back but... apart frm afew d rest didnt bother much bout me cumin back.. I'm not askin for royal treatment.. but i felt awkard.. D feelin i had was as if i did sumthing bad be4 i left and came back pretendin not knowin anything.. That's d kind of feelin i get.. Sumhow i felt that they r hidin sumthin frm me.. But didnt wan to confront any1 in case i was thinkin far too much... Hope i'm wrong..
But it was sure good being back to sch.. Memories were slowly cumin back to me.. Miss d inet... canteen... Lab...SRC... n others.. Most of all.. mizz my frends.. hehe..
Anyway.. tml is my last day of sch.. Gonna miz my frends.. but gonna mit them soon again.. haiz.. But sadly d classroom will be changed.. I prefer d current room.. It's whr we all cld sit n chit-chat comfortably together.. Not like d other room.. very hard to communicate leh.. hehe..
Anyway... gtg.. Currently my msn contacts r signin in and out 1 by 1.. sorta irritatin.. hehe..
10:28 PM
Tuesday, March 20, 2007
Screwed Day
Sigh Sigh Sigh.. Don't know what's wrong with me today..
I figure out sumthin though.. If i were to be super stressed up studyin juz be4 i knock out.. it seems that i won't be able to slp well throughout d night.. It has already been 2 such occasions.. And both occasions always comes with an nightmare. Luckily ive forgotton my previous nightmare.. Now have to forget d new one.. pictures of it still runnin through my head.
Anyway, my today's dressin sense well haywire.. guess that i sooo didnt have d mood to dress up.. my pumps sorta screw up today.. n my bag is still screwed...
Not forgettin my marketing test today is 60% SCREWED!!! 5 opened structured ques each worth of 20%. All i noe is that my 1st ques is totally GONE!! Alicia n i wrote d same ans and yup.. we both were like... NOOOoooooo.... Sumhow, Alicia n my answers were almost d same though we sat way apart frm each other.. hmm.. Telepactic sense i guess.. haha..
And that sumitra.. sumhow i guess smthing is realli wrong bout her..Accordin to mel.. She kept makin noise durin d test.. haha.. Stress lah.. hehe.. Sumhow i dislike her.. She's very drama.. And she shouts practically everyway juz to attract attention.
My area guys were pretty funny moments be4 d test... They kept makin suggestions on how to cheat.. There was d throw d tissue paper on d floor thing and when u pick it up.. quickly look at d answers on ur frends.. Then there is tappin on d table thing.. And since it was 2 per table.. d guys purposly sat pretty close to each other but in d end they were still separated haha... Lame.. One of d guys behind.. had a military backup set-up behind.. All around him was his frens!!! All arnd me was d brainiacs.. haha.. But still no one cheated or copied..
Somehow after d test my class bunch gathered outside and we all became soo united talkin to one another bout d answers hence d 60% SCREWED in my test.. hehe..
Also i learned smth.. even if u don't know how to answer a question, juz write nonsence and if ure lucky, u'll still get points. that's what i learned from Eric.. hehe.. I managed to finished all ques and was confident bout my answers but now... haiz.. All of us juz aim for a passin mark...
12:58 PM
Friday, March 16, 2007
Finally Updated!!!
Yeah.. i noe u ppl have been checkin up for updates so here it is!!! Sorry.. been realli bz adn with mu cuzzi arnd.. haiz.. bz..
So... this was what happen since monday... Monday went for my first basic theory test n i failed!!! hehe... sumhow i was happi bout it.. hehe.. Nex test is in May 16...Siva accompanied me.. Sumhow, i dun think i wanna go out wif him.. yeah..
Anyway.. tue met up with qal n nana at sp kfc... Was studyin freakin hard until they showed up.. Phew.. stopped studyin n started to relax... and also n tue mornin.. i finally saw mahesh n cb manager arnd my area.. Met him at a bus stop... Sumhow he was hidin frm me.. hmm.. weird.. n his "pregnant" stomach is gone!!!.. Like what qal said.. he had slim down drastically.. yup.. so true..
Also.. on tue.. reason i met up wit qal n nana is cuz my cuzzi (Kavi) n my aunt came.. So. i sorta hide from hm for a while..hehe.. When i reached home.. everythin was ok.. Found out that kavi wanted to study nursin here.. So i had to take care of her sudy needs.. Damn bz from wed onwards....
Wed.. i met d whole grp at tpy library n pick up kavi n went to nyp after my lesson... but we were sent back .. we had to DL d application form and submit to them directly.. So we went home.. My aunt n venkat went to hdb to apply for a flat but came home soon cuz she didnt have kavi's passport n ic with her... So.. at night.. i had to print out d application form together wif her fotocopies of cert.. etc etc etc... Tiring...
Thurs.. after sch went to nyp to submit everything.. Then went home.. My aunt n venkat went back to hdb and applied for a flat at beach road.. They wented a place in d north but places available was only in d far east n west... But they r still clingin on d hope of gettin a flat arnd my area.. Which is sorta good.. My mum wld rather them stay arnd here too...For a certain reason of cuz..
And finally today (Fri) they left back to malaysia.. But i didnt see them... They were slpin when i left for sch.. but they'll be back real soon.. hehe.. I sorta miz kavi.. Cuz it's been long since i had another youth to mingle with in my hse.. And sch today was normal.. Came home tired..
Gonna study soon.. n tml got work.. ah crap.. haiz.. Cant wait for days to pass... Nex week is my last week of sch.. and last weekend of work .. And d week after is my study week... Whoo Hoo.. hehe.. Thats all .... Phew.. finally updated..
I'm Gone For Now..
7:40 PM
Wednesday, March 07, 2007
Pic Update...
Sumhow.. diz we did d professional look..
Moi 2 goodu besties.. (Latecumer Princess & Moronic @$$hole)
We were BORED.. This was taken after 12.. hehe.. Last train back home..So.. finally updated d pics.. More pic will soon to cum..
Anyway.. like qal.. cum to tink of it.. This week is also not my week.. Mon night to d whole of tues sux.. Today.. i sorta miss my ite frends n my 2 besties.. (Dunt AWWWW!!!) Dont know any...
Anyway.. i'm gonna change my lifestyle.. I need to adapt to my sch life.. home life and city life..(out wif frends) hehe ... yup... I remember those ite days of mine where i go to sch in d morn and reach home at night.. Yet i wld not be as tired as now..
Anyway.. tml d "BEST" person in my life cumin back to s'pore.. Sooo not lookin forward.. Gonna miss d past 1 week being totally home alone... Cld do anything i wan..
5:51 PM
Tuesday, March 06, 2007
HorriBle Day Cum NigHt..
Yeah..Last night went to bed earli at 11.30pm... Cried myself to slp.. Had a sudden rememberance of my late-aunt.. After cryin... i slept with a mind full of things.. Sudden woke up at 2+ with a night-mare.. Techincally it wasnt a night-mare but it was sum how scary.. Then i got up wonderin how cum it's so dark outside..(maybe cuz it's raining).. got my towel and was abt to bath when my mu stopped me.. and ask me to look at d time.. I told her time for sch.. But when i look at d time it was only 2+.. i was shocked... "oh ok.." that's my reply.. Then went back to bed..But cldnt slp.. Still havin my "nightmares d moment my eyes close.. Soon i thought of sumthin nice and then i fell asleep.. Took me sum time..
Wan to know my "nightmare"??
I was literally studyin in my dream.. My lecture notes were there and i was readin n actualli understood it...D scary part was that no matter hw much i tried to stop studyin... i cldnt.. I was too tired but juz cldnt stop studyin..
So when i got back to bed after 2+.... d moment i close my eyes... My lecture notes appears in my head again..
Horrible.. Then on d way to sch... i actualli took d wrong bus.. Suppose to take 855 but i tink i took 980... Dun know how did that happen.. So d moment i got down.. i cross over..took a buz to d resovouir and a bus to sch..
Then in klas.. my bag magnectic button came out.. Drop my stationaries twices and became embaressd when i had to ask d china couple behind me to pick it up for me.. Then after sch at popular.. after paying for a notepad i bought.. I was abt to leave leavin my notepad there.. Luckily d lady called out to me..
Right today not my day.. Soon ice gotta to back to TP NTUC to buy stuff for my mum.. Freakily tired..
1:28 PM
Saturday, March 03, 2007
Hate em'
Hate my dad.. Hate my bro..
Dad is spoilt.. has no responsibilty.. acts as if he's d king of d hse.. Loves hogging d tv n couch.. He's no diff from a crouch potato... Yes..i understand that he's pysically unable at times but still he's not d KING!!! And he juz went out to buy beer.. Idiot rith.. i dun care lah.. let him drink for all i care... if anything happens.. i dun care...
Bro got attitude prob.. thinks that d whole world owes him.. Once he enters d hse.. his voice can be piercin to d ears of d walls.. Freakin noisy lah... If a soccer match doesnt goes his way... he'll scold here.. and there as if his d manager..
Juz realise that i cant study/concentrade at hm.. HELP!!!
Dad is spoilt.. has no responsibilty.. acts as if he's d king of d hse.. Loves hogging d tv n couch.. He's no diff from a crouch potato... Yes..i understand that he's pysically unable at times but still he's not d KING!!! And he juz went out to buy beer.. Idiot rith.. i dun care lah.. let him drink for all i care... if anything happens.. i dun care...
Bro got attitude prob.. thinks that d whole world owes him.. Once he enters d hse.. his voice can be piercin to d ears of d walls.. Freakin noisy lah... If a soccer match doesnt goes his way... he'll scold here.. and there as if his d manager..
Juz realise that i cant study/concentrade at hm.. HELP!!!
10:56 PM
Weekends Are Finally Here...
It's SAT!!!.. techically friday to me... hahah.. So.. a short brief on wad happened in sch past 4 days... Well.. it seems that each day i make frends with sum1 new.. First day was mel which turns up to be my good buddy in klass... Then on tue it was think 2 malay gals infrnt of me.. sumhow i got a bad feelin bout them.. Wed forgot who.. Then thurs was this guy whose back reminds me of jimmy whose name is eric and he used to study at ite macpherson multimedia course so he's 23 now.. whoa.. Also made frends with a gal name Mei or May.. kind and typically nice gal... not hyper at all... and today made frends with a indon gal whose name i forgot.. arggh...
So far.. every lesson i've been feelin uneasy bout myself n sick.. Havent got adapted to d timing yet and i'm slowly plannin out a schedule for myself and how to improve my health... So far only today i felt good n hyper in klas...
Anyway..met qal at sp who cldnt stop slappin my face n kickin my leg.. Had to go through pysical torture while waitin for that princess of latecomers WANI to arrived at d grand hall of KFC... haha.. And oh...MS Dorothy koled us up today.. to cut it all short.. She has offered me a job at a bank durin weekends 12-6 pm.. 5 bucks hourly.. So i did sum calculation at at d end of 3 weekends i'll get 180 bucks.. i thought of keepin d cash first... If i were to continued d job for a llonger period of time then i'll use d money to buy a bag.. Qal cld also go but he has work.. DARN U QAL!!! haha..
Anyway.. qal left soon after d princess of latercumers came and started our shoppin.. I spent a total of 69 bucks worth of a pair of pumps, a pair of slippers, 1 3/4 pants, a babydoll dress and a tank top. Yet to buy ear studs.. Oh ya.. can go AMK or bugis.. hmm.. its much cheaper there... Wani spent about ** bucks.. haha.. W/o discount it wld be *** bucks.. so u rought estimate lah.. haha.. Wan n i went hyper.. when goin hm...I guess it's that time of d day when we go hyper.. Aniwae.. Qal gave me a pretty good advice abt spendin..technically d advice is for wani.. hehe..
Reach hm be4 11.. Mum disapprove of d clothes.. darn.. irritating... I bought a tank top and for those who know me.. i nv wear tank tops alone.. Not d body revealing kinda person.. Yet she can yakketty yak soooo much as if i'll wear it alone.. Cum'on lah.. She shld noe wad i usually wear wad.. Dissappointed in my mum...
So.. slpin a bit later today.. Later wake up.. rest study until sun... and back to sch on mon which i will have new subject Basic Econs.... Yup... Cant wait... Mel n i already scared bout basci econs cuz our maths r downhill...
haiz..
haiz..
Anyway.. family update.. Chances that kavi is cumin to s'pore to study nursin.. Venkat ask me about nursin schs today so... ya.. But this is juz my though... told my mum bout this.. she said that there might be possibilities that it cld be true..whoa..Looks like this year is surely gonna be happening.. hehe...Well.. it's already happenin.. hehe.. And thats' d malaysia side.. Now for d india side.. Well d india side has nv effect me at all n i dunt realli care bout it anyway cuz i no hardly anyone there..But it seems that my long lost grandmas (Dad's Mum) might be cumin to s'pore.. And it's a 100 % sure that i WONT see her.. This is realli forbidden.. Even if to bump into her.. pretend not to see her.. I was like.. ah damn.. i dont even noe how she looks like.. No foto of her..actulli i'll be contented if i got her pic..
Anyway..i realised sumthing which makes me stress.. My organiser.. It seems that wadever extra stuff i have besides sch.. that makes me stress.. Juz by knowin that i have smth one on this day and another on..on this day.. that makes me stress.. Keep thinkin about it.. and so on.. This to me is serious.. Cuz sumtimes when i study.. i think about d appointments i have ... I have no solutions to this prob... but tryin to relax myself first.. haiz..
Anyway.. no pics... cuz ppl like latecumer queen nv update pic...cant help...i understand ur situation.. hehe .... Anyway.. i'm gone..
1:08 AM
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