Somehow, this is like d most depressing skin ever but
i'm lovin it.
Busy with my life in Tantra Inc as an Assistant Producer and
balancing both family and social life.
Thing is miss most is my sleep and dreams.
Due to work, eating is like a goal for the day, thus i'm literally losing weight.
I still love eating though.
I'm 21 and soon to celebrate my 21st mega birthday party!! Right now, it's only talk.

Ya we still can take pic in da toilet. So unglam right. And this was my blonde moment. I actually didnt know whr to look. But duhhhhhehhhhhehhhehehheheh.... look at the camera lah.. Duihhhhh

Later we wanted to slack out sumwhr.. so why not city hall. That's the only place i cld ever think of. So there we were, outside Tangs at the bus stop like some goodus wonderin wad bus cld we take there. Cuz the buses were like diverted all arnd so god knows which bus goes whr. We ended up in the train.

When we were gg up the escalator there, we heard this.. "Vrooooommm...... vroommmmmm and more vrooommmm... Of cuz, the F1!!!! We went AHHHH AHHHH AHHHH for the whole 10+ mins!!! We ended up calling our mums then!!!.. It was soo cool.

This is us over excited.

We could actually see the cars at high speed. Wanted to take pic and video but too many ppl and all blockin our view. Apparently, the nex 2 days, the organizers covered it up with black paper. They dun wan us to view. Idiots.
After it ended, we headed to starbucks and had our chocolate indulgence.

From this....

To this... pathetic right..

Anyway, had MMR today. I was sleepy and thinkin abt my subway sandwich throughout the exam. Hmm. I literally took my time until i ran out of energy and ideas or crap to put. Haha. Prey hard.

BOOYA

Cried... Cant take it. It's either run away to Malaysia alone or Australia for 3 years. Hate home. Hate ppl at home. Hmm.. Let's start with the happier moments.

Sat:
Went to Jas Goh bdae party. Found out that some of us came for the sake of the invitation like me. I can go on and on but i tink i would juz pick the fun part. Fun part was that the usual crew was there. Suren, Bala, Hilman, Harold, Stediy, Nazreen, Cam+bf, including Janice, KL, Gerald, Alan+gf, Dominic and Yi Hang. Took loads of pics. And towards the end, Stediy gave Naz and Hilman a ride to Bedok. While, Harold, Bala, Suren and i were takin the bus. Harold started his 'machi' attitude. Which was relaxing for me cuz it's not always where i get to hang out with indians and joke in tamil. But cam+bf were there too so we had to switch back to english. In the bus towards Bedok, by the time we reach Tenah Merah....

Harold: Is this station Bedok???
Suren: Ya lah.. Bedok already.. quick press bell and get down..
Cam: Sure or not.. (Panicking)
Bawani: No .. dun tink so...

In the end we all got down but after the bus moved off, we realised that we landed in Tenah Merah. Then fingers started pointin to Harold. Oh Well... Conclusion was that, we still needed a MRT Station to get home.

Sun:
Vengadase came over today since it was his bdae. I told him that it was vegetarian at my place but he ordered seafood. Want to know wad seafood.. Shark, Piranah, Seahorse and Ninja Turtle. Seriously, the things that goes on in his mind. So i played along offering him Live Piranah and BBQ Whale. In the end, we all went out for Chinese Supper.

Mon: Had MMR presentation. Went well although i knew i cock up abit. Now for Advert assignment. Due in a few days. URGGHHH. I'm gonna put in alot of effort for Advert to distract myself from things. To cool myself off from skl, met qal, caron, jun and frends at PS for break fast. Qal was soo head over heels with TEKONG. Caron and i felt like strangling him whenever the word TEKONG was mention. After that we all head to AMK. Did a lot of walkin and finally laid rest at Mac. Manage to catch the final bus home. For the first time in years, a chill went down my spine while waiting. Though there was ppl arnd me, i wasnt safe. Then there was this indian foreigner, who kept lookin at me from behind and the side. Thank god his bus came. Then after a while, suddenly this thailand guy sat nex to me.. he was pretty close. Felt uncomfortable. Preyin for my bus to come quick and yes it did. Best part was that my 'uncle' was drivin. At least a familiar face amist all the tension. Chatted up with me. I seemed to have a lot to talk about and so does he. Perhaps one reason is that we both have affliations with Malaysia. haha.

Okay, nw i dun have the feel to type down all the unhealthy stuff that happened. I gues i juz wan bury myself into all the limited happiness i could get. I cant depend on anybody anymore. They have their own life, own prob and own happiness. Yeah well... I guess i know wad to do. I'm juz waitin for my exams to end before i .......

I cant take it anymore.... And i know wad i'm doin.. I'm in my clear mind now.



Things has been lookin up to me lately well... ever since my major hair cut. I guess havin long hair was a bad omen. I can't be more supersticious right...

Anyway, school's been okay despite tempers flaring around due to projects. Well it's about time. Ysdae was pretty funny though. Van, Roz and i were on the way to the ladies when we saw the corridors invaded with China students.


Roz: shit i forgot to change currency.
Bawani: Feels like we're illegal immigrants.
Van: lol...


After toilet:
Bawani: are we back to Singapore?? (since the china students were gone.. phew)

It's not surprising that most classes can end arnd the same odd time. Welcome to MDIS where the it juz gets 'odder' and 'odder'.


Today, Van and i were soo bored and couldnt be bothered to listen to Sivam and his no relevance speech to the topic of the day. So we started to compare ICs and all. And then we started to compare with Roz IC.


Bawani: Mine (fingerprint) looks more slantin to the right, yours (Van) looks straight and oval shaped which her's (Roz) looks all over the PLACE!!!


Van: LOL Hard.


I juz had to repeat the same thing to roz. Hehe. Later Roz started talkin abt her pimple sayin that it MIGRATED from her cheek to her forehead. Yeap, she use the term 'Migrated'.


The class simply couldnt be bothered to listen to Sivam. And bet no one understood a fraction of what he said today. And thank GOD that tml will be my final lesson with him in my LIFE. No more Sivam after tml. He can go on talkin irrelevant topics which is soo not gonna help in my exam yet he wants us to pay attention sayin that he's helpin us in our exam. Like HELLO!!! We werent born ysdae. The only person who adores him is Roz. God.. help her!!!!


Anyway, Van intro me a book called Twilight and i'm soo crazy over it now that i bought the 2nd book with her help. Gonna start on it today. The movie is comin out soon and i'm countin down to it. Accordin to Pamela, it's 3 months and 8 days. There's like already 4 of us in class who are goin ga-ga over the books. I'm a Harry Potter Fan but i have to admit that this is 10 times better than Harry Potter. Well that is a proven fact due to a statement written on one of the books. It juz keeps u glue to it. Yeap and that's the first book. Read it PEOPLE!!! Once ur done.. get the 2nd book (New Moon) and the 3rd and the 4th. All the books are out. And it much cheaper then Harry Potter. The Hard covers are cut-throat prices though affortable.

The End -> juz needed to write that down. hehe.

Been busy, frustrated to the highest point and much heartless lately. Don't know whether i'm doin the right thing or not at times. I know i have all the rights to be angry. But not sure whether i'm taking my anger to the correct way.

Down with 2 more assignments. Still abit behind time with it.

I need a data cable badly. Havent been able to upload pictures from mobile without it. Ever since my other mobile has been sold away without me the owner being informed about it, things has been rather 'missed'. Nokia 7370. One of my favourite fone and limited edition. Thanks alot to the asshole who sold it. Really appreciate all that you've done. If only u weren't family, i swear i would have humilated you, slap you, curse you and make you feel that you rather be dead then alive.

Ysdae was my mum's bdae. Though of gettin a cake but my dad juz had to show his appreciation by ending up in hospital again. I'm not surprise. It's like i grew up in this. I couldnt even be bother visiting a person who doesnt think of others, doesnt appreciate what others do for them and thinks that the whole world owes him a living.

I do sound heartless. But i feel that i'm right. Yet i'm not sure whether i'm doin the right be in feeling this way. Cuz he's still my dad but he doesnt deserve that title. After all i dunt see him as 'my dad' anymore.

Anyway, dropped by swensens earlier and got mummy a belated cake.

Time is ticking away, and i'm usin it for games. I have soo much to do and buy before time is over. I juz dun have motivation to do what i need to do. It seems that i rather be at home alone and play games. I'm like escaping from work.

My mind is in a whirlpool. Sometimes hate myself. I need a life.