Somehow, this is like d most depressing skin ever but
i'm lovin it.
Busy with my life in Tantra Inc as an Assistant Producer and
balancing both family and social life.
Thing is miss most is my sleep and dreams.
Due to work, eating is like a goal for the day, thus i'm literally losing weight.
I still love eating though.
I'm 21 and soon to celebrate my 21st mega birthday party!! Right now, it's only talk.

I dunt enjoy postponin my life events. But i have to for the sake of family. I dunno know whether u realize it or u juz wan to act like u dun know it but really, i dun wan to be home. Y be home and get frustrated then at night cant slp. Yes i cant slp everynight. I have to constantly do smth energectic. I'm not used to home life. U dun understand and perhaps u'll nv will. Sometimes.. realli i hate u. I juz wan u to leave me.. let me be myself. Then when the day comes.. u'll might juz realize why i chose to not be arnd on my bdae. But i know... u'll nv will. No point tellin u cuz u'll nv understand. U dun listen either. U tink ur always correct. But hey, no one is ever correct. U juz have to admit but then again u'll nv. If i can and i do wish, i rather stay at a hostel now... this moment. Support myself do things i ever wanted to. That's whr Aussie comes in. I nv really tell this to anyone but the main reason why i want to go to aussie and do overseas intrnships is because, these two is the best way to get outta hse.

Shit.. secret's out... Haha. That's why i nearly signed up for army before joinin MDIS. At least army life, u dun get to home everyday.

Anyway, i hate ppl forgettin abt me. First was the class gatherin which apparently "miscommunications" between me and roz. I dun get it. How is "i'm not sure, but i'll confirm with u again" 'miscommunication'???????? And if ur tellin me that i shld have contact u earlier, me tinkin it was on a sat eve and i msg u on sat afternn not earli enough. Hey .. that week was agonizing enough for me. Really.. i dun get it. And roz.. if u ever read this.. then good.

And today was the best! My own godbrother bdae celebrations and the whole fuckin lot didnt contact me 1 bit. Reason cuz it was very last min. Ya gd excuse. How long does it take for one to sms a person?? hours issit?? I dun blame my godbro though cuz he didnt knw wad was gg on either. And btw, this aint the first time. Shit.. nv have been this angry for sooooooo long sia. This time, they gonna realli get it from me that if they still dare to say sorry and all lame excuses to crop up.