Somehow, this is like d most depressing skin ever but
i'm lovin it.
Busy with my life in Tantra Inc as an Assistant Producer and
balancing both family and social life.
Thing is miss most is my sleep and dreams.
Due to work, eating is like a goal for the day, thus i'm literally losing weight.
I still love eating though.
I'm 21 and soon to celebrate my 21st mega birthday party!! Right now, it's only talk.

My bro and I couldnt be bothered about the fact that we arent talking to each other. Or at least that's what i feel. But ppl around us, say frends, are d most worrying about that fact. And hey, even my mum got used to that. Haha.

First it was my bro's best frend. Now it's my sec sch classmate who was a recruit under my bro. I don't get why these ppl bother. I mean, yea, they may be good frends but can't they juz leave it as it is? It's not as if it's a HUGE problem. This happens in majority of families. (especially indians). But thing is that, all are speakin up for my bro. They are telling me the things he did. Which is working cuz i feel soo bad. But he started it. haha. Which is true. Cuz i didnt not talk to him first. Thinkin back, it all happened when i was angry at my mum about my bro. But i wasnt angry at my bro. Then he stopped talkin to me until now. I know a good talk will settle all this. BUT... niether me nor him would like to even start talking. I guess this is where 'ego' comes in.

I somehow found out what i wanna do in life. I wanna be in various businesses cuz now, i've got ppl askin me to be part of this and that. My interest still lies in Media. I've already got 2 proposal for short film project. One on already on the way while d other is at d moment juz talk.

Life is great (Nah... juz feel like sayin that...)







It's DEEPAVALI!!!!

And guess wat!!

I havent even stepped into Little India to view the deco and lights!!

Which also means, no shopping done.

My family is aint in the spirit of Diwali. Well, dad's still in Hospital. Got transferred to Ren Ci Community Hospital on Monday. I always hated d idea of sacrificing. Firstly.. had to sacrifice my 21st Birthday since my dad lost his toes then. If i celebrated, then my malaysian gang wld know the truth. Couldnt let that happen can i.

Next, because of him, no one has the mood for Diwali. That includes my aunts and my grandma.

Now, i can't concentrate on my work daily. It juz worse that i dislike my workin environment. And i even tok to my boss abt freelancing.. and i can't. Urrgghh.. That's another story.

My dad knows abt this, but whether he feels for it or nt, we dont know. He juz has tooo much ego... too much pride and him losing his bloody leg seems like a small matter. To him, maybe,, but to the rest of us .. NOO! That's where i come in. My mum advises him in a nice manner, She juz couldnt be mean to him. But i can. And she allows me to be too. My dad usually shuts his mouth, after i give him a lecture on life. And i love it. My mum smiles tooo. Yeah.. we're mean..

Well.. he deserves it for makin our lives miserable. If he was an outsider, we would juz shut him off from our lives. Too bad, he's not.

For now, life goes on. My nex update will be a Picture Update!!! Look out!!

PS: Happy Deepavali and Happy Holidays!!!



Sure, we've always complain that time is either too slow or too fast. But not many of us stop and listen to people and to ourselves. Here i am, back to the main office. The past few weeks working at Tantra has been irritating but at the same time peaceful. That's cuz i was at d 6th floor whereby only 3 of us, Ross, Vicky and i were thrown there. Facebooking and msning most of the time.
Yea, this is to label my huge stack of rough papers.. :P